Pelajaran

Pelajaran

Apa ini ini pelajaran, so many things in my head to define what the real meaning of this "pelajaran" dimulai dari pernikahan, kehamilan, pekerjaan, dan pertemanan. Di umur gw yang udah ga lagi muda yes you right udah 27 tahun aja umur gw sekarang, makin banyak yang gw dapetin. Tapi again gw bersyukur banget sama yang gw dapetin saat ini.

Pelajaran Pertama

Pernikahan, ga hanya cinta ama sayang doang tapi dibutuhkan pengertian lalu mengerti dan mengerti lagi pasangan yang pasti sulit banget apalagi kalau pacarannya sebentar. Tapi semua orang pasti melewati masa-masa ini yang jelas jalanin dan percaya pasti everything will going to be ok.

Pelajaran Kedua

Kehamilan, ternyata ga segampang itu buat gw untuk menghadapi kehamilan gw, diiringi dengan muntah2 yang luar binasa, dengan syndrome meliur yang tak habis2nya, mual dan heart burn yang menyiksa. Sungguh saat ini pelajaran untuk melahirkan seseorang ke dunia ini ternyata ga gampang. Tapi kalo gw liat positive sidenya ga semua orang bisa dipercaya untuk bisa hamil, and i'm the one of the lucky mom in this holy world. Saat ini diusia kehamilan gw yang menginjak umur 8 bulan gw bertahan, ikhlas dan bertahan.


Pelajaran Ketiga

Pekerjaaan, paling sulit apabila disaaat gw ga bisa juggling dari satu hal ke hal yang lainnya dimana pekerjaan gw menuntut untuk demikian. Belum ditambah dengan bos yang sulit dimengerti, klien yang banyak maunya dan colleague yang ga sepaham atau ga sesuai yang kita harepin. Tapi well namanya cari duit ga ada yang mudah ini udah hukum alam, bigger money ya bigger responsibility. Gw bersyukur dengan penghasilan yang gw dapetin saat ini, dan semua ilmu yang gw dapetin dari pekerjaan yang gw lakuin . Selama ini gw terus mengumpat dan memprotes semuanya dalam hati maupun didepan sahabat dan laki gw betapa menyebalkan pekerjaan gw. Tapi ternyata setelah gw sadari betapa menyenangkannya kantor gw, lingkungannya, pekerjaannya hingga boss dan teman-teman dikantor. Satu hal yang baru gw sadari terkadang manusia selalu melihat keatas atau melihat rumput tetangga padahal well itu belum tentu lebih baik loh, dan lagi-lagi gw bersyukur telah diingatkan betapa preciousnya kerjaan gw saat ini.


Pertemanan.

Hal ini yang paling sulit gw maintain, dengan kesibukan gw dengan ke sok sibukan gw baik pekerjaan keluarga terkadang gw melupakan pertemanan gw yang selama ini gw jalin di sma, kuliah dan di pekerjaan. Terkadang karena gw ga pernah punya jadwal yang pasti dan kesibukan dikantor sampai melupakan hubungan pertemanan gw ini. SO sad it is, tapi terkadang harus memilih. Kangen sekali bisa kumpul2 sama semua teman-teman nongkrong di cafe atau nonton bareng atau sekedar arisan atau olahraga bareng. Saat ini gw masih mempertahankan hub pertemanan gw dengan sahabat-sahabat gw tapi ada dan banyak juga yang gw udah menghilang dari mereka, dan mereka pun jadi enggan untuk ngajakin gw lagi yah welll karena gw udah terlalu sering menolak. Tapi somehow i will fix this and i hope it's not too late.

Yesss semua ini pelajaran banget buat gw gimana ngertiin keadaaan, pekerjaan, menghadapi cobaan. Ge bukannya orang yang selalu menerima gw lebih banyak komplain tapi beruntungnya gw masih berfikir positif atas semua kejadian yang jadi pelajaran buat gw.

iresistable unexpected

A whole package of life has been passed over my heart, well the day that i thought it's going to be different has yet become so much distressful enough. I never believe it's going to be straight in front of my head and never realize I'm going to be a keeper or the one that can be keep for own good. It's sucks when i knew it and realizing that it's much more suck if i never knew it.

I do believe that yet it will hampered me and yes it's hampered me.. i wondering days by days how this happen and why i got this blind affection with no sign road and without noticing that it will never arrived into the gates that i want to be. WHAT's gate? gate of happiness gate's where i can diminish all my sadly and unexpected memories that i keep down inside my heart. Yes and yes I'm still on my own way through the gate and get the gate and having it all without looking bad through the previous ommission that has been done to me.

Eventually they will realized how it's so precious, and how i got easily affected by the charmed of solitude, the charmed of passion and sincereness, yet i do believe there still tomorrow and yet god still love me with his own way give me a direction and giving me and protect me that the way that i have been chose it's not the correct one and absolutely it's not the one that what i've been looking for this years...

living a live into the fullest maybe that could be one of things that will be so amazing todo these days. welcome the new begining inside of my heart i do hopes that everything's it's going to alrite and we will find our own way, with the directions from god.


tears in heaven...

Cold Minded

Things need to be clear enough to find the reason behind why?,
i have this feeling when i'm just through the depiction of it and hey i like it and really hopes that i will have those precious moment with it. Than Gladly the times goes by, this enormous feeling had been growing up through the next level, even somehow i pretend i didn't realize it. Well i might be wrong eventually this sensitivity comes again, and keep asking why??

Some reason it already covered up what i'm waiting during years, and all the matters than i want to deal with. Well sadly i'm so preventive i like to keep it up. And stop wondering the wonderfull things to come.

And the significant step will come in the next couple of days, so how i could struglling over it and deal with it? obviously only god know it and just hopes for the best...
If it is sounds real deepest hopes asked to make it real, and go for it and stand for it and let this this happen.


well for these days i will keep it right behind my heart and accompishing nicely with loads of will from god and things to full the live into the fullest..

With loads of HUG

Maya

Personal Approach

How we approach personal stuff with huge of in diffrently matter of personal attitude.
Well sometimes we need to deal with person whichs is unbelievable suck, it could be your friend, your family, your boss or even your partner.

Well shit always happen for that matter when the conflict is arises we should make sure that dont accomplished with anger and loads of emotional think first than act later after you could think very clearly... hey but sometimes we are not angel and we could not deal without using our emotion and nobody is perfect (ahahhah very bias and abstract)

Important thing tried to care that you're not live by yourself and tried to understand people much more and you will through the conflict easily. Every body always have their own problem with huge of personal stuff and absolutely very complicated for each. People Have their own way of life and it's hard to consider it.

my point are we need to understand and tried accomplish differently personal approach wisely.

queen of my heat

What I'm gonna do the rest of my life....??

well honestly that was the most scared question surrounding in my life today's. i was staring and contemplate how I'm going to spend the rest of my life?

Talking bout successes it's not bout how hard your will to achieve the best thing you could get, its how you need to had the stroke of luck, and how we emphasize the term "it's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be". That terms comes from the person who is very wise, and what about the person who doesn't make mistake is unlikely to make anything.

Benjamin Franklin said, 'I haven't failed, I've had 10,000 ideas that didn't work.'

Thomas Edison said, 'Of the 200 light bulbs that didn't work, every failure told me something that i was able to incorporate into the next attempt.'

Theatre director Joan Littlewood said, 'If we don't get lost, we'll never find a new route.'

All of them understood that failures and false starts are a precondition of success. And I'm trying to build my own castle of hope to believe that failure was a major contributor to its success. Regardless what ever situation I've been facing through rite now.

All of my hard working to keep my brain thinking while my ass keep working on the same time just to actualized what my parents hopes from me, and see them proud of myself. Hopefully everything turns to be more than i have expected before and i believe as long as the goal is there, there is no limit to any one's achievement including me.


Cheers...
06.08.2008
huge thanks to Paul Arden.
the one who always inspired me with loads of his stories.