Cold Minded

Things need to be clear enough to find the reason behind why?,
i have this feeling when i'm just through the depiction of it and hey i like it and really hopes that i will have those precious moment with it. Than Gladly the times goes by, this enormous feeling had been growing up through the next level, even somehow i pretend i didn't realize it. Well i might be wrong eventually this sensitivity comes again, and keep asking why??

Some reason it already covered up what i'm waiting during years, and all the matters than i want to deal with. Well sadly i'm so preventive i like to keep it up. And stop wondering the wonderfull things to come.

And the significant step will come in the next couple of days, so how i could struglling over it and deal with it? obviously only god know it and just hopes for the best...
If it is sounds real deepest hopes asked to make it real, and go for it and stand for it and let this this happen.


well for these days i will keep it right behind my heart and accompishing nicely with loads of will from god and things to full the live into the fullest..

With loads of HUG

Maya