iresistable unexpected

A whole package of life has been passed over my heart, well the day that i thought it's going to be different has yet become so much distressful enough. I never believe it's going to be straight in front of my head and never realize I'm going to be a keeper or the one that can be keep for own good. It's sucks when i knew it and realizing that it's much more suck if i never knew it.

I do believe that yet it will hampered me and yes it's hampered me.. i wondering days by days how this happen and why i got this blind affection with no sign road and without noticing that it will never arrived into the gates that i want to be. WHAT's gate? gate of happiness gate's where i can diminish all my sadly and unexpected memories that i keep down inside my heart. Yes and yes I'm still on my own way through the gate and get the gate and having it all without looking bad through the previous ommission that has been done to me.

Eventually they will realized how it's so precious, and how i got easily affected by the charmed of solitude, the charmed of passion and sincereness, yet i do believe there still tomorrow and yet god still love me with his own way give me a direction and giving me and protect me that the way that i have been chose it's not the correct one and absolutely it's not the one that what i've been looking for this years...

living a live into the fullest maybe that could be one of things that will be so amazing todo these days. welcome the new begining inside of my heart i do hopes that everything's it's going to alrite and we will find our own way, with the directions from god.


tears in heaven...